The Questions and Questions of Life

Questions of fate, faith, destiny, choice, solemate, timing, and the meaning of life are among the ones that I never seem to be able to answer. How much of life is predetermined? What is my purpose? To be honest, I think these issues may simply be self-made in order to create a belief that life is something more than the basic animalistic birth-reproduction-death cycle. We need to feel that we live somewhere in between God and the wildlife but yet I can't help but keep wondering. I have a problem thinking that I had no part in the happiness in my life that I now have and that I can't do anything about my unhappiness. Of course, we cannot be in complete control of everything, but that's why we have God. By communicating with the higher power, we can at least have that power to maybe help influence the outcome. Even with these thoughts, however, I still feel the need to accomplish something through the choices I make. As to how, I'm not sure, I keep getting caught up in the questioning. I have a hard time believing that there is a map of our life layed out somewhere, and that map cannot be adjusted, adapted, or changed whatsoever.